i was apparently very upset over the fact that xrf aka wuha got in the next round AGAIN.i was so busy pondering when would they manage to squander their entire pay so that they are unable to pay for their calls anymore.*rOar* was so pissed that xrf got in that i kept on msg-ing my friends.some friends even thought *touch wood*lucify got out again...*choy choy*

even my mother wasn't impressed by them.remarked that they couldn't sing.my father was even more funny.he sort of think of them as clowns.when he came home he asked about xrf.he said the 5 that depended on money to be in competition.he said that it was entertianing that the poor judges had to come up with comments for their lousy performance every week.my mom was rather surprised that the judges didn't fail them.lolx.my whole family is so fun!one plus point about xrf yesterday.they shut off the irritating female voices!!!=p

lucify managed to the next round.*phew*but i still wish that xrf will get out soon so that better bands can stay in the competition.look at jade,jingbao,amber..they deserve to be in the competition than xrf.they got the shi li that xrf has not managed to show/or don't possess at all.argh.all this talk makes my blood boil.=(

all this time i still couldn't get tix to superband show.via post or by friends.but still in search of it.hopefully shall get tix soon.so all the lucify supporters shall go support them all together.hehe.shall draw till very visual kei before i go!=Pi love japanese visual kei!X japan!Dir en Grey!Larc en Ciel!haha...go japanese visual kei!

lalala.gogo visual kei~  

quite alot happened in school lately.many unhappy things.too much memories dwelling in the 2 classrooms that used to be so familiar.the 2 classrooms that once filled with friends from 3 different classes,3 different combinations,many different combinations of personalities.

we grumble about the same stuff,attempts to stifle an obvious and escaping yawn while the teacher is trying very hard to teach.all those times we laugh with wu lao shi's 'serious' talks.infact i missed the place and atmosphere so much that,during the last lesson.i laughed till i cried.i wonder why somethings can be removed so easily.like a chair from the classroom,a leave from the tree.while somethings,no matter how hard you may try,you will always end up feeling more empty than ever.

i feel the horrible sense of emptiness when i touched the thick hong lou meng which i have been openly cursing because of the deepness of the text.secretly,we love the texts in our hearts and sometimes,it even jumps out of nowhere in our conversation.i feel horrbly lost now.i didn't want to let it go...but it was a 'bread' or interest question.it is a reality check.when i took out the red red pen of mine and strike out the column LEP on the verification slip of the A level registration.i felt that i had accidentally stike out my heart instead.

i seriously think that i haven been so sad before.not recently i think.4 of us dropped the subject and chose to left the class.the teachers look really sad.i felt that i am obliged to apologize to them personally...but when i open my mouth,no words came.i just stand there with my mouth agape.looking right into the teachers sincere eyes.and i felt like breaking down.then she said,'do you want to go in and attend your last lesson?'her eyes look abit red.we went in,i almost cried out during the middle of the lesson.i realize how hard it is to give up something that is so dear to you.

goodbye,my dear dear teachers,wu lao shi,lai lao shi,lu lao shi and pan lao shi.thank you you all for the continual guidance and support.you all are my teachers for life!i esp wanna thank pan lao shi,for the last 4 months when the Lep project is on-going...wu lao shi for making hong lou meng such an interesting topic...

all in all..thank you..i just wanna say it out.i couldn't say anything when i stood infront of them.i feel too guilty to say anything.

i am sorry.

0318...that day was kunda's birthday.a person like me who could do without liuyans actually went to liuyan on internet.i really can't write messages in the net for some reason.but anyways.i did it.*grins*

while reading some of the liuyan's on the webbie.memories started to flow again.i realized i was rather emotionally dependent on energy back i was in secondary 2 and 3.i would talk and talk about energy all day...irritate people.until they ask me to shut up.how did i managed to go through secondary 2 in my life without going to any of the auto sessions always managed to baffled me.haha.

2003 to 2005...events that happened made me grow all of a sudden.my energy friend even joked with me online that day,saying that 'energy fans will always be the strongest,cos we had gone through what other fans had not gone through'.maybe,we are stong,but it is build up from the tears we shed.the memories that we have,the friendship we build.i miss energy already!=)

i wonder how things will be when i see them--the 3s.how the feeling will be?

on the 2nd thought.might not beable to see them afterall....*thoughts trail*

anyways,anyone can help me make a new blogskin?i getting sick of the old one...

i knew i could have been out somewhere watching movie and gorging myself with oodles of popcorn.drinking taka coffee.enjoying doughnuts galore.

instead i am sitting myself at home.sticking to the timetable.revising my work slowly.slowly.slowly.slowly.my progress is crawling like a tortoise.now even my sms speed is crawling.

hols will be over in a few days.much to my horror and the 'block test' will be falling all over me.that's for sure.i won't know how it goes but.aiya.*cross fingers cross toes*this is the very first time i care so damn much about a sickly common test and even bothered to study ahead of time.but when you study ahead of time.it means you study rather slowly and leisurely.distracted by all those 'temptations' that are constantly trying so hard to get your attention.*waves waves*

pah.i sound like a weirdo mumbling on and on about the non-existen stuff.

i wanna say sorry to all those who had asked me out but i hadn't done so.

esp. to dearest gera gal.always can't meet you for some reason....:(

sorry yar?you must take care too.

all in all i must congratulate the stupid topics for successfully irrritating me for the rest of the week.hehe.